Thursday, December 29, 2011

Much Appreciated.

I know I have asked you nicely before, but I will ask you one more time before the devil in me comes out.

To all my husband's ex girl friends, friends that are girls, old kissing "buddies",
whatever category you may fall under,

Please STOP trying to add us on facebook.
It's bad enough you want to "be-friend" my husband again, but we have SHARED fb account and I honestly want nothing to do with you.

He wants nothing to do with you.

You are all married.
I don't know.
That's your own problem.

But we on the other hand are EXTREMELY happily married.
and I don't want you messing that up.

There is an unsaid rule when you get married..
I'm guessing you didn't get the memo

but when you get married, all the people you have dated, kissed, had any sort of romantic relationship with are left in the past.

deleted from facebook, myspace, twitter, etc.. (whatever tickles your fancy)
deleted from your phone
No texting
No calling
No messaging via internet

Actually, when you get married, all existing friends pretty much disappear.

I don't like finding out about you
I'm pretty sure MY HUSBAND
(not your boyfriend, just in case you forgot)
doesn't like hearing about my past either.

We don't talk about it.

We trust each other.

Whatever may have happened in the past has been taken care of and we don't want the reminder.
(that's YOU)

But when you pop back up into the picture, it just makes both of us mad.

So, if you would stop, we would both greatly appreciate it.

A pissed off wife

Monday, December 19, 2011


Dear Mr. Husband,

I would just like to apologize for how I have been acting lately.
The past few weeks have been hell for us and I am probably not making it any better.
I'm sorry for hardly making dinner, for not doing laundry, for not going grocery shopping, that the house is a pig sty, for being ornery and snippy, and for looking frumpy!

The 14 hour shifts and tiredness that we both feel is the cause of all of this.

I'm sorry

I was much prettier before we got married
Now I walk around in jeans, a hoodie, a ponytail and no makeup
You still tell me I look beautiful but
I promise that once this week is over I will look pretty again for you.

The talk we had on the way home last night was very nice.
I'm glad that we can talk like we are best friends but also as lovers.
I'm excited for the new year and our new goals
and to celebrate our FIRST anniversary together.

I love you!
Thanks for loving me when I'm hard to love.

Love your wifey.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Hell Week

I refer to Finals Week as Hell Week.
I think it's an appropriate fit.

I am lucky enough to have only two real finals this week
one which is online (booya!) open book/open that is my kind of final!
Then my second one, I'm procrastinating all the studying I need to do because I am just retaking the class next semester so it doesn't really matter if I bomb the final or not.
catch my drift?

But as for Mr. Husband.. he has some tough classes and has been stressing out and studying every minute of every day for about two weeks now!

On top of that, we are both trying to get as many hours as we can at both jobs before we head off to Vegas for Christmas.

My two brothers, sis-in-law and nephew are driving to Arizona tomorrow to spend Christmas with my family.
I am VERY jealous to say that least

I'm having mixed feelings about this Holiday Season.
I kind of feel like Scrooge.

We have been so busy we haven't hardly put up any Christmas decorations,
we haven't done any of our family traditions,
we haven't even been Christmas shopping.


As soon as this week is over, I will be able to breath and sleep once again.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


I just thought you all should know that I am insanely & completely, madly in LOVE with this sexy man!

Thank you Mr. Husband for all the sweet things you do for me
for making me smile when I don't want to
for letting me cry in your arms
for letting me vent to you about things you could care less about
for randomly texting me sweet nothings
for doing the dishes because you know I hate it
for choosing me to spend Eternity with!

I love you Kyle!!

Monday, November 21, 2011


Let the Vac-A being!!!

I officially do not have school for one week due to awesome professors who cancel class for Thanksgiving break! :)

I have been so overwhelmed lately with midterms, working two jobs, household chores, & all of the other fun crap that comes along with growing up that this week break is VERY needed.

Mind you, I still have to work (boo), but I am so happy to spend lots of time with the Mr. of mine!

This will be the first Thanksgiving that I have spent with my extended family in 5 years!
I am soooo excited.
Minus the fact that my parents won't be here :(

I am in charge of making a cheesecake and 2 chocolate pies.
which you can get the recipes on my food blog here

It's going to be quite the par-tay
I will get to love this little man to pieces ALL week.
The more I am around him, the more I think he needs a cousin ;)
...all in due time

Thursday, November 3, 2011


Today I have really been missing these people :(

Sunday, October 9, 2011


The past 3 weeks or so I've been really ornery.
I don't know why? Everything just seems to get on my nerves.

I get sad really easily.
example: I was in my communicative disorders class and we were watching a movie about a family that had twins and one of the babies was born deaf and the mom was having a hard time coping with it, etc, etc.
It made me cry a little.
Thank goodness that lights were off

And NO, it's not PMS.
I hate that people use that as an excuse or when someone says
"what's wrong with you? Do you have PMS?"
ughh, girls can be emotional or upset without having PMS.
really. grow up.

My family was here for a week and a half because baby Cooper was born
They left on Saturday afternoon.
We had to say goodbye on Friday.
I bawled my eyes out
I had to go to work shortly after they left which took my mind off of things for a while

I spent last night crying...
over a lot of things.

I'm so overwhelmed it's not even funny.

Mr. Husband & I both have two jobs and we are going to school.
We don't see each other a lot
it's hard.

i hate it.

I'm not taking any really hard classes but I've failed two tests already.
not miserably failed. just by a few points.
I have test anxiety.
No matter how much I study, I look at the test and forget everything.

I like school but I hate it at the same time.

I know that I need to go to school if I want to get anywhere in the world but I'm seriously debating if I want to.

With all the pressure the world gives you with having a baby, going to school, working, paying bills, etc.
seriously stresses me out!!!

Which brings me to my next point.

It drives me insane that people my age go on all these nice vacations, buy all these nice things/clothes/shoes, have new 'toys' all the time, etc
when the husband and I scrape pennies to pay bills & buy groceries.

How do they do it?
Are they just in debt?
Or do mommy & daddy still pay for everything?

I have friends whose parents pay their rent.

When I was old enough to work, my parents told me I had to get a job and pay for my own things.

clothes, phone, gas

Don't get me wrong, they will help us if we need it, but they aren't going to pay our freakin rent!

ugh, growing up seriously isn't as fun as I thought it was going to be.

Sorry this entry is all over the place

Just had to vent a little.

Monday, September 26, 2011


Introducing the cutest nephew in the whole wide world!

Cooper Matthew Carter

Oh, how I love this little baby!
I'm obsessed!

Crystal was induced on Wednesday September 21st.
I went to the hospital as soon as I got out of class
I went home at 8pm when the Mr. finished class/study group
ate dinner and hit the hay.
Told Cam to call me when Crystal was ready to have him.
You see, she stayed at 3.5 for like 5 hours!

At 3am I woke up to 3 missed calls, texts and a voicemail
I woke Kyle up and we drove to the hospital
We got there right before he was born.

Cooper was born September 22, 2011 @ 3:42am

I spend every second I can loving that sweet boy and admiring all of his HAIR!

Uncle Marky

Happy Little Family!

This little man has my heart!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

I cried.

Vanessa Bentley.
She was an amazing person.

I first met her when we moved to Tucson 5 years ago and went to our new ward.
I was not excited about moving, going to a new ward, making new friends, etc.
But she was so loving and welcomed me the instant she met me.

She made me feel comfortable in my new surroundings
Got to know me personally
Invited me to activities to make more friends
Sat with me at lunch at the "Mormon table" so my brother & I weren't alone.

Everyone knew who she was.
She was a pretty amazing person.

I found out yesterday morning that she passed away last Tuesday.
I cried as soon as I read the text from my mom.
bawled actually.

She was serving as a Missionary for The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints in New York.
She was involved in a car accident and was put on life support but passed later that evening.
read more here , here or here.

It's kind of mind boggling that she's gone
Even though we have the knowledge through the Gospel of Jesus Christ that will see her again, it's still hard.

I laid in bed last night wide awake thinking about her.
She was such a good person.

Its hard to think that two of my friends, both so young, have died this year.

Mr. Husband keeps telling me, it's because they were so righteous that Heavenly Father needed them more in Heaven then on this earth.

I try to think of that instead of them being gone.

Sunday, September 4, 2011


The first week of school is over!

And what a week it was.

It went by quite fast but at the same time VERY slow.
if that makes any sense?

I had some very long days!

You see, I have my first class at 9:30 and then my next one doesn't start until 3:30
I get to spend a few of those hours with Mr. Husband but most of that time is spent
people watching
trying not to fall asleep in front of hundreds of students

I took 3 or 4 naps this week.

I'm the type of person that hates naps.
I feel like I am wasting away my day.

But as soon as I got home from school, I told Mr. Husband to come snuggle & talk to me.
5 minutes later, I was asleep.
tired much?

You betcha!

When I'm not at school, I'm working and doing homework.
Oh...the joys of being poor and in college.

I don't know if it's because my body is so exhausted or what but today I started to feel sick at work.
And it was BUSY!
The girls that closed Saturday night left a lot of things for me to do on top of the normal routine

So customer after customer came in, I was feeling so sick to my stomach saying little prayers that no one would show up so I could sit down for 5 minutes.

Well, then I started to feel dizzy, light headed, and barfy!!!

I hate feeling barfy

it would come and go, then when there was a HUGE line.... I could feel my face getting pale, I was shaking, and seriously was trying not to throw up my breakfast.

When I got my first break in between customers I ran to the back room to the nearest garbage can and up-chucked!


I hate, absolutely hate throwing up.

And, no...I am not pregnant.

Funny how when you are married and sick people automatically assume you are prego.


sorry to disappoint.

Speaking of prego.. my sis-in-law is gunna pop out that lil nephew of mine soon and I can't wait to get my baby fix!!!

woot woot

Monday, August 29, 2011


Today is my first day of school at USU

I am sitting on a bench waiting for my first class to start.

I'm really nervous.

I came early with Mr. Husband because his first class is an hour earlier than mine.

but thankfully, we get to have a few hours together
(during my FIVE hour break between classes)

So he can calm me down and tell me everything is going to be great.

You see...I've only taken a couple classes at a community college when I was living in Arizona.
People basically call it 13th grade because of how easy it is.

So, I'm nervous to be attending a REAL college with GIANT classes!!

But I'm excited to be doing something with my life.

Well, I'm off to my first class
Wish me luck!!


Saturday, August 27, 2011

Last Hoo-raw!!

Kyle's Birthday turned out pretty fun...but it wasn't what I expected.

We started the morning off grabbing a few last minute items for everyone to come over.
Kyle's dad, brother (mitch), Lim & Lim's brother showed up around noon
**Lim is basically another brother. He was a foreign exchange student from Korea that has lived with the Hawk family for 4 years now.

Everyone snacked on the treats we had out, then we went and moved Mitch into his apartment,
Went to Wally World to see if they had any tubes, because the boys all wanted to float the canal.

Turns out, summer is "over" and they don't sell them anymore...but it's still 95 degrees outside.

Then we went back to the apartment where Kyle opened his presents which consisted of:

USU Sweats

He picked them all out...I just told him to act surprised ;)

Mark got him a game for his xbox 360 that he has been wanting.
I made him promise me that it wouldn't consume his life.

Then his parents got him some really nice waders so he can go fly fishing without getting soaking wet.

We all just hung out...(well, more like sweat to death in our apartment..we don't have AC) until 8pm when we headed to The Bluebird Restaurant
(**Thats where we had our very first date)

Birthday boy in his new outfit

I had previously talked to family and friends about meeting us at Bluebird to surprised Kyle because as far as he knew, it was just going to be me, him, his dad, brother, lim & lim's bro.

Well, it didn't turn out quite like I had imagined.

They sat us back in this room, where our guests couldn't really see us
Then our guests either couldn't come, canceled LAST minute, couldn't come til, it was disappointing for me but Kyle still had fun.

We went back to our place, had cake, pie, treats, etc. and played some games.

Then yesterday, Mark, Kyle, Me, Mitch and Shae all went to 7 peaks
We were all stoked!
We got up early, drove down to Ogden to wait for Shae to get off work
Drove down to Provo, got there around 1:30pm just to find out that it was closed until 4.
We walked around the mall for an hour and a half then headed back to the Peaks

It wasn't as fun as I remember.
I mean, we still had fun, but definitely not worth the price.

We all start school on Monday.
I am really scared.
We have walked around campus a few times now, so I think I know where all my classes are.
We bought books today.
I don't know how college students survive with bills, school, working, etc.


Wednesday, August 24, 2011


Today is Mr. Husbands 24th birthday.

Kinda crazy that he is 24
{he doesn't act 24 ;) hehe}

Last year, I really went all out for his big day, because he was going back to Nevada and I wasn't sure when I was going to see him again.

Here are a few pics from last year

I started out by "heart attacking" his car

Woke him up with a few kisses & his favorite donuts
then gave him this candy gram

When I got home from work, I hurried and got ready, picked Kyle up and we went to dinner at
The Cheesecake Factory
Where we shared some "Stephanie's Cheesecake" for his birthday dessert,
which later was the way Kyle proposed to me and it was our wedding cake

It was a really fun day!

Too bad they don't have a Cheesecake Factory in Logan or we would make it a tradition
I'm not sure if I topped it this year.
I guess we will see

Proposal :)

Wedding Cake

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Home Sweet Home!

We are here in Logan.

It's been quite stressful and we haven't had much sleep.

I won't lie, when we walked into the apartment I was a bit taken aback.

It didn't look like the pictures...
or maybe I had just pictured it differently

Now that we have started to put things in its place, it's growing on me. ;)
{It's going to have to because we have a yr lease}

I just have to keep telling myself Logan is an old town and we live in an old apartment

We have spent a lot of time on campus trying to figure everything out.

I haven't changed my name "legally" and this lady was telling me I HAD to change it to my married name for school records and for my financial aide/loans but I would have to drive down to Ogden and then it would take at least 2 weeks to get my new Social Security Card and then I would have to pay for my classes if my loans didn't come through
blah blah blah!

I had a little melt down on campus.

It was a long time coming

I've been so darn stressed with finding an apartment
clean checks
registering for classes

that it all just finally hit me

Well, we went and talked to the financial aide peeps, they said it was all good.
No need to rush and change my name
I can do it for next semester.

Then I had to meet with my adviser, which was very helpful.
She had outlines for all the classes I needed to take freshman, sophomore, junior and senior year.

Yes, I am 22 years old and still a freshman in college.
Don't judge.
At least I am going.

Well, I got home to register online and almost ALL of the classes I needed were full!
all of them.

I had another little melt down.
hmp! :(

As for now, I am just waiting on one class and then I will be good to go!

I didn't know moving was so expensive either.

We had planned to buy a washer & dryer when we moved here because coin laundry was getting to expensive.

But then, we also needed a new bed since the one we are using now is about 20 years old and has been passed down to us from my grandparents to my parents to us now to Mark.
yeahhh......... enough said.
plus its a bit small for us

So, we bought a bed today.
we bought for a great price!!
I'm pretty excited

But now we are super poor!

I start work tomorrow.
I'm nervous to work with new girls.
I really hope we get along.

I've been needing some girl friends to do girl things with.

anywhooo... that's all for now folks!

Until next time.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011


Boy we have been busy!!!
Sorry for the lack of blogging.

Just a little update..

On the 4th of July, Kyle and I got to be in the local parade for my work

Some friends invited us to go to Idaho Falls to watch fireworks
this was the only decent picture of the night

The next week my family flew to Utah from Arizona.
I was ecstatic!
Kyle & I picked my parents and little sister up from the airport
I was so excited I could hardly contain myself.

We spent the next week just hanging out, apartment hunting, shopping, etc.

Kyle had to come back to Idaho for school, but he came back later in the week to go fishing with all the boys and spend some more time with everyone.

My aunt Jalene took our family pictures.
They turned out great.
I will post some soon

After 3 months of apartment hunting we finally found one!

We are very lucky and very blessed to have the apartment we got.

It's big, has covered parking (yes!!), HUGE kitchen, storage shed, a back patio & a lot more.

My brother Mark is moving in with us to save him and us a little money since we will all be going to school full time and working.

Mr. Husband and I have been working our tooshies off trying to put all that money back into our savings account that we had to spend for the apartment and for the washer/dryer we bought.

I start at the Twizl in Logan next week.
I'm nervous.

Kyle's dad, brother and my brother all came into town yesterday to help us move.
They have all been very patient with me.

You see...I'm quite a neat freak
I love to organize things and put them in their proper place.
I had to pack everything in the boxes because if not, things were just getting thrown into random places.

We all woke up around 7a.m. made a nice breakfast and then the work began.
We are just about done
We are leaving tomorrow morning.
I am kind of nervous.
okay, really nervous!

I'm scared to start all over...even though I grew up in Logan I am still scared.
To work with new co-workers,
new ward,
going back to school (on a bigger campus),
Making new friends all over again....

Say a little prayer and cross your fingers for me.

Loves & Doves

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Food Blog

I started a food blog!

You should check it out here


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Apartment Hunting

As many of you know Kyle and I are moving the end of this month.

We are so happy to get out of Rexburg and have a more permanent place to live and really start our lives.

We've had quite a hard time finding an apartment.
We have been looking for months!
But people want to leave or have tenants in at a certain time..
we just couldn't swing paying rent here and rent in Utah.
We have about 2 weeks to find a place.

I'm stressing.

We have a few places in mind but NO ONE calls us back.
Talk about horrible customer service.

We both start school the end of August.
I am a little nervous to go back to school. It's been a while.
But we are excited to finally get on a 'career path'

Kyle is majoring in Biology and plans to get his Ph.D in Toxicology
I am planning on going into speech pathology
but I still have a lot of work to do before I can even start taking those classes.

We spent the last week with my family.
They flew up from Arizona. It was sooooo nice to see them.
We all had a hard time saying goodbye.

My little sister starts her senior year next week.
She's a senior.

While they were here visiting, my Aunt Jalene took her senior pictures.
She's so pretty.

It's kinda sad when you LITTLE sister is so much cooler than you ever were ;)

I miss them already and wish we were closer.

We will see them in October when baby Cooper Carter comes!
I can't wait to be an Auntie!!

Saturday, July 2, 2011

vent session

I am fed up!

Fed up with Rexburg, the people here, my job, 'sunday mormons', etc.

To the point where I am just done

I'm so sick of the fake people here who pretend to be my friend just to get something then talk crap behind my back

I'm sick of being 'the nice guy' but then when I need something, no one is around to help or only when it's convenient for them.

I wish so bad I had the guts to call people out & believe me...
When I get mad enough I will.
and it's not pretty!

I don't know why every single person I work with doesn't like me
(except one)
I don't ever see most of them??
I never did/said anything rude to them?

I'm not a mean person.
I hate contention.
I keep to myself.

So what is so bad about me that I only have 2 real friends in this dumb town?

27 days til we leave this place and I couldn't be happier!!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Today is a ponytail day

Yesterday I didn't work
and the weather has been AMAZING
so Mr. Husband & I wanted to do something fun

We invited some friends to go to a place called "Monkey Rock"

The water was freeeeezzziinngg!
But we had a lot of fun
{& some sweet sunburn lines}

Once we got home, we showered, ate dinner and I passed out on the couch while Kyle finished his homework.

I guess being inside & in bed trying to get better for a month, then being in the hot sun all day took a toll on me

It's been pretty warm here, especially at night
We don't have AC
so it makes sleeping pretty uncomfortable

We both woke up around the same time this morning completely exhausted
dragged our feet to work/school
and made it through the day.

it was a ponytail kind of day.

t-minus 10 days til I get to see my fam!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011


Kyle & I are heading down to Utah next weekend to get some work done on my car.
My cousin, Ryan is an amazing mechanic and about the only one I trust!
check him out here.

Come to find out..

My parents are flying into Utah that SAME weekend!!!

I'm ecstatic!
I took a couple days off of work to spend some time with them, but I'm also a bit sad because mr. husband has to come back to Idaho and go to school while I'm having fun w/my fam.

June has been a pretty hard month for me seeing as I have been sick for 3 1/2 of the 4 weeks.
and I've been missing my family like nothing else.
I wasn't supposed to see them until October when baby boy Carter comes
(that would have been 10 months without seeing them)
But, because my dad is amazing at his job, he gets to come to UT to train one of his athletes, Jill Camarena-Williams.
And because she is amazing at throwing, she gets to travel ALL over the world therefore she has a billion flier miles and offered to give my parents & lil sis a ticket to Utah if my daddy-o could work with her for a few days.
Which makes me one happy girl because I NEED to see my family. Hopefully they can help me get over this little depressed hump in my life.

Then when I get home, I've gotta pack!
Only about 3 more weeks of Rexburg.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


I moved to Arizona my senior year in high school.

to say the least, I HATED IT!

I hated the rock front/back yards (no one has grass)
I hated the cactus
I hated that they didn't have big trees with leaves that changed colors in the Fall
I hated all the wild/scary animals & bugs
I hated the heat
I hated that we NEVER had snow on Christmas
I hated that HUGE culture shock

People think that just because I grew up in Utah I was a 'sheltered Mormon'

I was not sheltered, I was naive.
I didn't want to know the gross or sexual things, so I didn't

I didn't use cuss words because I didn't want to.
It's not like I never heard them when I was in UT because I did

And yes, I turned my head when I saw that the high schools didn't have a dress code so girls came to school practically naked, or when I saw that kids my age (or younger) were covered in tattoos and piercing on every inch of their body or when I heard my teachers & fellow students drop the F bomb

It was a culture shock for sure!
For all of us.


I really miss it.

I miss my house
I miss my room
I miss my family
I miss my animals
I miss the roads I drove on everyday
etc, etc.

I have been very homesick lately

I spent most of Sunday crying.

Little ol' Rexburg is quite a depressing place and I want to leave!

I have recently been blessed with a very needed friend.
I've felt very alone living up here
and then out of nowhere we became insta-friends!
It's been nice to have some girl talk
(I think Kyle gets sick of me telling him everything!)

We have been able to help each other out the past few months

But I am still incredibly homesick.

Growing up stinks sometimes.
no money.
no time.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Fathers Day

I just wanted to do a shout out to my daddy and wish him a

HERE is an interview my dad did
and remember how I told you my dad was named Assistant Coach of the Year for the indoor season?
he was also named the Assistant Coach of the Year for the OUTDOOR season
He was just named the National Women's Assistant Coach of the Year
read more here

he is pretty cool, right?
I think so.

I miss you and can't wait to see you!!

Saturday, June 18, 2011

On The Mend

Kyle and I were talking the other day.
We have been married just over 5 months now & from the very first day we were married one of us has always been sick.
It's like we haven't gotten a break!
it's quite annoying.

I am getting better.
very slowly, but I am.
Still have some soreness in my mouth, a cough and some sinus gunk lingering
The antibiotics the doc gave me have caused a few other heath issues, but we won't go into those
a bit personal if you catch my drift

We got into Vegas last Friday around 9pm and were greeted by Kyle's family.

This was the first time Kyle has seen his brother, Mitch in FOUR years
He left for his mission a month before Kyle got home

Kyle was getting really nervous on the plane & we basically ran to see them.

Here is picture Kyle's mom snapped of us

Saturday we spent the whole day with Kyle's aunts, uncles & cousins
Sunday we went to hear Mitch's homecoming talk then we started our long drive back to Idaho.

The drive went by pretty quickly

When we got home (around midnight) Kyle realized he forgot that he some homework
We had to watch a movie for his class and fill out a paper

We didn't go to bed until 4am!
Woke up at 7 to take Kyle to class

Once Kyle was done with school we took his brothers to this cupcake shop we discovered not too long ago called
The Cocoa Bean Cupcake Cafe
and we LOVE it!

We are a bit addicted.
We go there are least once a week.
So we decided to take Kyle's brothers there.
they loved them too :)

They have over 40 different flavors and we haven't been disappointed with any of them

We went and saw "Fast Five" at the cheap theater later that evening
way good movie!

Then on Tuesday we went bowling & played miniature golf
that's the Hawk boys for ya

Mr. Husband & myself

My friend Cortney & I
w/Mitch in the background

Wednesday we went to a local campsite/park
we roasted hot dogs and marshmallows and just had a good old time together

Thursday we went rock climbing

Friday we just hung out at our apartment, watched movies & ate treats

Then this morning we made a huge breakfast, the boys went off to get a few things while I stayed home and cleaned up the mess! ;)

then we went rock climbing again.

We have had a great time while Garrett & Mitch have been here
We are sad that they have to leave tomorrow
but it will be nice to FINALLY get back into a routine of things

Hope all of you had a great week also

Thursday, June 9, 2011

My Immune System

My immune system pretty much sucks!

In my last post I told you I went to the dentist because I was having A LOT of pain, even though it had been about 5 days since the extraction.

On Monday we went in, the assistant and the dentist just acted like we were SO dumb!
They made me feel like I was just being a big wimp & they made Kyle feel like he wasn't doing a good job taking care of me.

I think the one reason I got dry socket was because the dentist 'forgot' to send us home with a syringe to rinse my mouth/sockets out when I ate something
therefore, Kyle went to Wal Mart where they gave him one, but it didn't have a 'hooked tip' to get down in the sockets and it just kinda squirted all over the place & squirted too hard.
when we told the assistant what kind we had she just gave us a "huff", rolled her eyes & walked away.

ya mean lady!

The Dr. just slabbed some dry socket paste into the holes and sent us on our way.
It fell out the same day!

Monday night, no matter what I ate or drank all I could taste was that nasty crap!
I was feeling a bit congested, so I used some nasal spray..the next morning I woke up to a sore throat, lots of pressure in my left ear, and a HORRIBLE sinus infection
I was still having a little bit of pain, and a lot of sensitivity/tenderness in my mouth also

It just got worse as the day went on. That night I thought I was dying!
We have used a total for 4 rolls of toilet paper just blowing our noses..
we both have pretty raw noses.

I was scheduled to work the next day but one of my very good friends/coworker came in and saved me.

We made appointments to go to the doctor and to a NEW dentist

We called our bishop that morning (who is a dentist)
Told him what was going on, he squeezed me into his busy schedule and I went in the same day.
He told me that my blood clots fell out, so the bone was being exposed so the tissue couldn't form/close up over the bone.
He put some more dry socket paste into the holes, BUT, he actually pushed it down into the holes, put gauze on top of them to help push it down, came back pushed it down MORE so it wouldn't fall out & he actually told me what I should and shouldn't do to help it so it stayed in.
*which the other dentist didn't tell us ANY of those things.
just shoved us right out the door!

He also did it for free!
How awesome, right?
He is a GREAT dentist
anyone between Idaho Falls & Rexburg need a good dentist. Go to him ;)

Now on to the my doctor's appointment.
I could SWEAR to you when we made the appointment, the lady said to come in at 3:3opm
We walked through the doors at 3:25
I told her my name and that I had an appt. at 3:30
and she gave me a glare and said
"Actually it was for 3:15 and you needed to be here early to fill out paperwork"
(she did not tell us that on the phone)
then she asked for my insurance card, I gave it to her and she said
"Is your insurance a provider for us?"
I was just thinking to myself
'......aren't you supposed to know what insurances you accept?'
I said, "uh, I don't know?" she gave me a look like I was a complete idiot
then she said "Well, because it's from Arizona I don't know if they will"
I just wanted to tell her she was so dumb!!!
It doesn't matter what state the card is from. I've gone to doctors in a whole bunch of different places with that insurance card and NOT one office has had a problem.


Where it says "Person responsible for bill" I put my info because HELLO! The bill is coming to me.
Then she told me because I am still under my parents insurance I have to put their info.
I asked if I could have another paper because I was going to have to scribble out everything
She just stared at me! STARED!
So I just scribbled it out.
I just wanted to walk out she was being so unprofessional.

Anywho.. The Dr. said I have a viral infection, there isn't anything he could do.
I just have to ride it out.
He did prescribe me the strongest antibiotic he could
I'm hoping it starts to work soon because I am feeling like garbage.

We fly out tomorrow night to Vegas.
I am crossing my fingers it won't be a miserable weekend because of said sickness

I will post pics when we get back.


Saturday, June 4, 2011


Well, there isn't too much to update on about my wisdom teeth.

I won't lie.
It sucked.

I was really nervous up to the moment I walked into the dentist office.

They had me take a second Valium to calm my nerves, gave me the laughing gas and turned on a movie.

The Dr. started to give me shots all over my mouth and within seconds I couldn't feel my face.

He came back in 10-15 minutes later to start.
He began with the top two which popped right out.

in like 5 seconds.
It was awesome!

Then he started on the bottom.
This was the sucky part.

I couldn't feel any pain, just a lot of pressure.

After about 20 minutes or so, they got the bottom right one out. They asked if I wanted to take a break and I told them no I just want to get it over with.
So, they moved onto the bottom left
which was the worst one
I had 3 roots that were all going separate ways in a 90 degree angle
So..they had to dig!
Thank heavens Kyle was there holding my hands (and watching) through the entire thing.

I kept hearing the Dr. and the assistant telling Kyle how tough I was and they couldn't believe how good I was being.
They were about 85% done with the bottom left and I felt the urge I had to pee!
really bad!

I sorta signed to Kyle that I had to go to the bathroom
so the nurse and Kyle helped me walk to the bathroom..I mumbled to Kyle to turn around so he didn't see me going to the bathroom. But he did have to help me pull up my pants!
hahaha *blush*

We went back in, they broke my tooth in a few pieces and after the two hours, I was done!
I was so relieved.

I know I promised you a video, but I wasn't too loopy so I didn't really say anything funny.

I thought the healing process would be faster than this but I still have a lot of pain and soreness

I actually went back into the dentist today and found out I have dry socket
(only in the bottom two)

Who knows how the heck I got it???
We were being so careful so this would not happen!
Kyle has to spray salt water in the holes after every time I eat which can be sorta gross

The Dr. put some NAS-TAY brown stuff into the bottom sockets that is supposedly supposed to help heal faster but that is all I can taste, no matter if I eat or not.

I am supposed to go back on Thursday to have him put more of that nasty brown stuff in them, but we will see how I am feeling

This is how I have been icing my face so I don't have to hold the ice packs there
I literally iced my face 24/7 so I had no bruising and very little swelling


Like I told you in my last post, Kyle's brother came home from his mission in Peru
They called us at the airport, so we got to hear everyone freak out.

This is Kyle trying to contain himself. He hasn't seen his brother in 4 years!

We got to skype his brother the next day, it was not the best first impression because I was in my Pj's, with messed up hair and ice packs on my face
And I threw up 10 minutes before

We are flying out Friday evening to go see him and go to his homecoming talk then he and Kyle's other brother, Garrett are coming back to Idaho with us.

I hope all this pain is gone by then.


Kyle and I didn't get the chance to celebrate our 1yr anniversary of dating
not that it's a big deal or anything
because we were both in bed sleeping the day away trying to get better
(he is still sick too...poor guy)

But tomorrow is our 5 month anniversary of being married!

We want to go out and do something fun but I can't really eat real food yet and I get nauseous if I stand for a long time.
but we will figure something out.

It's kinda crazy how fast it has gone by
and that we have already been together a year.

I couldn't be happier!
He is my best friend & my entire world.
I still love him like I did the very first time we met
He is the most amazing man in the whole wide world and I am so grateful he chose me to spend eternity with!!

I love you babe!

Here is a yummy recipe we tried tonight...well I nibbled
but it was really good from what I could eat

Wednesday, June 1, 2011


We haven't been getting much sleep at our house lately.

Especially last night.

1. I got home from work late so it took me forever to fall asleep
2. I had to go to the bathroom
3. Kyle is sick, so he was coughing ALL night long
4. Kyle's alarm went off at 3:30am for work, then he didn't even end up going because of said cough
5. More coughing, finally got up and got him some medicine, water, vicks, etc.
6. Couldn't stop thinking about getting my wisdom teeth out (t-minus 4 hours)
7. And my brother-in-law (who I have never met) comes home from his mission today!

Kyle & I are way bummed out that we couldn't be at the airport to see him, but we just couldn't swing missing school and work.

We are flying out next Friday to hear his homecoming talk, then we are making the LONG drive back to Idaho with Kyle's two brothers who are going to spend a week with us.

I'm excited.

In other news:

Kyle had a lump in his leg
by his hip
we went to 3 different doctors, the last one said he wanted to do a biopsy just to make sure it was all good.
I was sort of freaking out, because I didn't want to find out my husband of only 5 months had cancer!
We went to the surgeon yesterday and everything is fine.
It's just a fatty tumor that is not cancerous, but if it gets bigger we need to go get it cut out.
phew. that was a relief!

and for the record, I am freaking out (on the inside) about getting my wisdom teeth out!
I know I'm most likely over thinking the whole thing
I tend to do that



ps. Tomorrow is the one year mark since Kyle & I first met! awww ♥

Saturday, May 28, 2011


I am getting my wisdom teeth out TOMORROW

I'm freaking out a bit.

I am not going to be 'put out' because I am a poor newly married, college student who has no money
and to go to an oral surgeon would cost 2-3x more money

We are just going to a dentist here in town. He assured me everything would be fine.

he perscribed me some valume to relax me, then they are going to numb me and give me the 'laughing gas'

I'm still freaking out.

Kyle said he is going to video tape it..
I know, all of you out there are probably excited for that..
I just hope I don't say anything too embarrassing.

But above that, I just hope I don't feel it.


I'm so nervous!

Say a little prayer for me, mmmk?

Monday, May 23, 2011

What is my problem?

I have been feeling so tired lately.


It's getting quite annoying.

Even if I get a full 8+ hrs of sleep, I still feel so groggy and have zero motivation to get things done.
or write on my blog

I have a lot to catch up on.

so please bear with me.

#1. Our trip to Vegas.
It was a very needed getaway.
Kyle & I spent most of the time at his parents house waiting for everyone to get home from work & school.

We went to a couple movies (Hannah & Source Code)
I tell ya, he can never take a serious picture ;)

We rode the roller coaster "speed" at the Sahara

went to a sushi buffet...well, Kyle ate the sushi.. I just ate the other stuff.

This is Lim.
He is a foreign exchange student who has lived with the Hawk family for like 3 years now. We just see him as another Hawk boy. He is Kyle's Korean brother

We also went 4-wheeling

and just had a good time hanging out with each other.

#2. My dad was "offered" a job at BYU to be the throws coach like 9 months ago.
The job wasn't offically 'open' until a couple months ago. BYU basically told my dad that he already had the job & to start packing up our house.
Well...they were REALLY slow...i mean, pathetically slow, at the whole process.
My family had pretty much been planning on moving.
I left about half my stuff in AZ when I got married thinking my parents were moving back to Utah 6 months later and would just bring it with them.
Well...LONG story short, BYU didn't step up and offer my dad what he deserved. They actually offered him LESS than what he was already getting paid. Which is kind of an insult seeing how they BEGGED my dad to coach for them. (because, remember how I told you he is amazing! and the best throws coach in the USA)
UofA realizing what an impact my dad has had on their track & field program the past 5 years offered my dad a pretty nice raise to stay.
So..that's what they are doing.
My parents and little sister are staying in Arizona for who knows how much longer?!
But, it's whats meant to happen. I know that, I am just being a little selfish because I miss my family. A LOT!
I have a little cry fest to myself a few times a week because I miss them so much.
Mainly because, I don't know when I am going to see them next? And, once Kyle & I decide to have kids, both of their grandparents are going to be far away :( hmmmp...
(Here is a cool article that was just written about my dad and all his amazing athletes)

#3. Easter
We spent Easter alone this year.
We made each other a little Easter basket with some of our favorite treats.
We also spoke in Church.
I was scared to death.
It was the first time in about 4 years since I have talked in Sacrament Meeting
but it went well, just glad it's over ;)
We got to skype both of our families which was very nice!

#4. Some exciting news.......................

My brother Cameron and is wife Crystal are expecting their first little baby in October.
Yay for little baby boy Carter! I am going to spoil him rotten!

#5. I came home from working all day to a clean house, and a surprise candle lit dinner with "our song" playing in the background.

Now that it is getting warmer outside, Kyle & I try to be out in the nice weather as much as we can.
Kyle has been wanting to go Canoeing forever now, so we finally went.
Because of all the rain we have had, the rivers were extremely high
I was freaking out a bit

We went to the park later that day to fly our kites

This past weekend we drove down to Utah because my cousin, Justin was coming home from his mission!
He was originally called to the Peoria, Illinois mission, but it later was split and he was changed to the Des Moines, Iowa mission.
I had girl cousins kind of close to my age growing up, but Justin, Mark (my twin bro) & I were really close. I haven't seen him in a good 3-4 years so I was REALLY excited to see him again.
I felt like I was more excited than his own fam. hahaha!
Gma & Gpa C.

Proud parents & lil bro
(minus Austin who is serving in Uganda)

Kyle & Mark being themselves

We all went to dinner that evening and just listened to all of Justin's stories
It was so nice to be around my brothers and my extended family.
I got a little sad driving back to Idaho because I just wish so bad that my parents were closer and that I could see my family more often.
Come July, we are moving to Utah so we will be seeing a lot more of my family.

And last but not least, I have gotten better at cooking dinner when I find a really yummy recipe

Here are a few I got off some recipe blogs that Kyle and I really enjoyed.

"Heavenly Ham & Potatoe Casserole"
This one was really easy and really yummy.
Plus we had leftovers that lasted us like 3 days! ha ha

I have always loved salad.
No, not because I am a girl
I really do love it!!!
So I kind of put my own spin on things between this salad and this one.
It was DELICIOUS! My mouth is watering thinking about it. yum!

then last night we had "Tuna Casserole"
This is a dish my mom makes.
Kyle LOVES it and asks for it all the time

Here is the recipe
2 cans of tuna (drained)
2 cans for cream of mushroom soup
1 cup of cheese
1 box of noodles (cooked)
Mix all together, put in casserole dish
Sprinkle cheese and crushed saltine crackers on top
bake at 350 for 30 minutes
and ta-dah!
My family puts Catalina dressing on top just to add a little more flavor

Hope you enjoy!