Tuesday, February 22, 2011

To Anonymous

I don't really know what else to say?
I'm a little hurt by the 3 anonymous comments that were left on my previous post.

It's not like I don't know
who. you. are.

The least you could do is not hide behind the title "Anonymous"
and have the guts to leave your name.

Before you go saying "once a cheater, always a cheater", I suggest you get your facts straight!!

I never cheated! I never will!

I'm not that kind of person!

HE and I ended our relationship before Kyle & I started dating!!

If you think otherwise, then you are sadly mistaken.


The relationship I was in before I met Kyle was not real.

We both knew that.

It was falling apart LONG before it actually did!

I know I stayed in it longer than I should have.

I will take the blame for that one.

I should have ended it months before I did.
It's not like I didn't TRY talking to him.

I expressed my feelings, thoughts, emotions to him MANY, MANY TIMES

and he would NOT LET ME GO!!!!!!
He was adamant that we were supposed to be together.

It got a little scary actually!
Hence the reason:

Things were not the same between us as it was in the beginning.

Friends & Family could see that right in front of their faces.

They tried talking to both of us.
Even the ones in different cities and states saw it.

If you were being honset with yourselves, you would admit that you saw it too.

After it finally ended one of HIS BEST FRIENDS wrote me and said, "thank you. I could see your guys' relationship wasn't going anywhere. You both deserve better."



We were NOT meant to be together.

I'm sorry that hurt you

You have no idea how much I prayed and asked for help.
I would kneel at night, crying, asking what I should do!!!

I knew what my answer was

but every.single.time. I tried to talk to him about it, he would dismiss me and my feelings.

Then I doubted my own inspiration.
(one of the scarey parts)

And you all know how many times I left AZ to get away and try to find an answer without the surrounding influences.

I knew it was going to crush him, that's why I stuck around so long.

HE told me that if I broke up with him, "His world would simply be crushed."

I thought I could make it work.

I tried to force it to work.

But in reality, I was just making myself more miserable!

I couldn't love him the way he needed to be loved.

I told him that a million times.
I was saving us both.

Yes, Kyle & I found each other pretty quickly after this whole thing unfolded
but that is the way GOD had planned it out


But, if you are going to be mad at me, then delete me from your blogs so you can stop stalking my every move and creating all this unwanted/unneeded drama!

Unless you and everyone else
wants to continue to spread rumors about me and my family.

Go ahead-
It doesn't hurt us.
Only makes us stronger.

I just cannot believe people of the same religion
with the same beliefs can cause so much drama to other people.

Mormons on their self-righteous high-horses claiming to exhibit Christ like love to everyone.


I don't blame people for hating Mormons.

It's no wonder why other people believe Mormons to be so judgmental.

Especially when situations like this

are made so public by comments like the ones you left for me.

I was just trying to do what was right for the both of us.
Yes, it caused pain.
I'm sorry.

But it had to be done.

If you haven't noticed...
You are the only ones that are still having a big fit over this.


Yes, I cared about you all..but, I wasn't going to spend the rest of my life with someone I couldn't love to the fullest! HE deserved more than that.

So, let's all grow up.
Hurry and get all your phone calls made so

the little circle of people

that are all still so hung up on this

can read it.

Then leave me alone.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Our Story

A lot of people have been asking how Kyle and I met.
So instead of telling the story over & over again, I decided I would just write it down.

Once Upon A Time...

I was living in Arizona with my family. I was going to the singles/student ward for a few years but once my twin brother, Mark left on his mission, I just didn't really like going there anymore so I started to go to my home ward with my family.

There was this lady named Stefanie, who was one of my little sister's Young Woman's Leader
Her son also went to my mom's pre-school
That's how we started to get to know each other
She kept telling my mom that I needed to meet her brother, who had just gotten home from his mission in Africa
(I thought that was cool because Mark was in Africa)

My mom would bring it up every now and then but I really was not interested
*Every lady in my home ward was trying to set me up with their brother, brother-in-law, cousins, friends..it was getting crazy
Stefanie told me to look him up on Facebook
So, after a few days, I finally did.
I still was not interested!

A few months passed, no one really said anything about it anymore

Then out of the blue, Stefanie told my mom after picking up her son from pre-school that she REALLY wanted me to meet her brother because she disliked the girl he was dating!!
(That makes two of us)

So..then the bugging started once again!

I finally just added him to facebook and sent him a message saying
"I'm Makenzie, I know your sister Stefanie, she keeps telling me to add you, hope that's okay"
(I still have the messages saved *blush*)
About an hour later there was a reply.
Come to find out, Stefanie had been telling Kyle to add me and that we needed to meet
He told her that he didn't want to because I was "too pretty" for him.
Lame excuse, right?

We started messaging back & forth for a few weeks
And when I didn't reply to him fast enough, he asked Stef what was going on.
I wrote him back and told him I didn't get on FB that much and if he still wanted to talk he could text me and gave him my number.

We started to text...
which led to calling...
which led to 5 hour "skype dates"

(Yes, we skyped one time for 5 hours!)
He was quite the sweet talker!!
That went on for about.. 3 1/2 months

I was moving back to Utah to go to USU that coming Fall
My mom and sister were also up there because my Aunt was getting married

Before we had even left to go to Utah, I asked Kyle if he wanted to be my date to my Aunt's wedding.

We made plans to meet up in Logan & I would go back to Idaho (where he was going to school) with him and stay with one of his friends...that's a girl...
who is now one of our really good friends and live right next door!

The day finally came and to say I was nervous is a complete understatement!
I was freaking out!

We met at the mall
Right when my mom, sister & I got there my phone rang
It was Kyle asking where I was.

We had pulled up the exact same time!!

I was walking into the mall and he said,
"are you wearing a white shirt & standing by a girl in a yellow shirt"
I said, "NO" and hid behind a car.

He just started laughing, then he told me to turn around and I saw him get out of his car
We walked towards each other and gave each other a huge, long hug!
(it was nice ;) haha)
I felt sort of awkward because my mom and sister were just standing there watching us!

I told Kyle I would treat him to late lunch/dinner because he drove all the way from Idaho to pick me up and then drive back later.
*side note: He held my hand when we were walking into the restaurant..he said he tried like 3 times but kept missing! Haha

And just let me say this...
When I first meet someone or go on a date with a new guy, I am pretty shy and quiet at first.
But with Kyle,
It wasn't weird
I didn't feel embarrassed
It wasn't awkward
I was totally myself
I wasn't afraid to say or do anything in front of him
It felt like we had known each other for a long time!

We did a few things around town, then headed back to Idaho

I felt really bad because Kyle had a sick stomach and we had to stop a few times for a potty break.
Poor guy.

We got to Idaho and just hung out at his apartment
He asked if I wanted a back massage
Random, right?
But I was thinking, 'Heck ya I want one!'

I sat on the floor in front of him & he started rubbing my shoulders..then he moved my hair and kissed my neck!!!!

yes, my neck!
I turned around kind of like.."umm..??"
Then he kissed me!
Smooth, right?

silly boy.

We spent the next few days together. He showed me around campus and I went to a few classes with him.
Friday came and we drove back to Utah for my Aunts wedding dinner
That night when we got back to my grandparents house..it was just starting to rain
We were standing there talking, waiting for my mom to get there
when Kyle looked down at me, touched my cheek and said
"I Love You"
awww....romantic, right??
We spent the next day at my Aunt's wedding dancing the night away ;)
This was our very FIRST picture taken together

He, my mom & my sister all left the next day.
It was pretty hard.
I was sad.
I actually cried.

Kyle and I spent the next 2 1/2-3 months driving back & forth to see each other
I ended up not going to USU because I would be going to school when he was 'off track' and living in Nevada with his family.

After A LOT of talking & trying to figure a way out so we could date
We decided to both go to Arizona and work, work, work!
I moved back home & he moved in with his sister.
We did that for 4 months!

Then we got hitched!!

Yes, things happened pretty fast.
and yes, our situation was really weird.

Before I even met Kyle, I knew something big was going to happen
I didn't know what it was then.
I did know that we each had really strong feelings for each other before we even met.
Which scared us both.

But everything happens for a reason.

Now I finally know why we had to move to Arizona 4 1/2 years ago..
to meet Stefanie so she could introduce me to her amazing brother
who is now my amazing husband!!

Funny thing is, we could have met soooo much sooner than we did!
In so many different places

That's why I know the Lord has a plan for all of us.
We both had to do a lot of things and go through a lot of crap to get ready for each other and when we did

I didn't have any doubts about being with him
I thank the Lord every single day that he came into my life!!!

.......And they lived Happily Ever After

The end!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Have You Laughed Today?

If not...watch these videos of my silly husband!!!

He cracks me up :)

This was when Kyle and I spent the day sledding. He decided he wanted to try and snowboard down the hill on a sled.


This is of Kyle dancing while we were making dinner. I was laughing so hard that I had to stop cooking and make Kyle start over so I could film it!


Monday, February 14, 2011

Lovers Day

I just want to put this out there.....


Hands down!

As you know, if you read my last post, the week started out kind of rough

Kyle & I had talked trying to figure out a way to see each other with our totally opposite schedules but couldn't come up with much..

He came and visited me at work every night that I worked
and every night I got home there was a surprise waiting for me!

Night #1
It was a long letter telling me how much he loved me and all the reasons why

Night #2

I came home to these ALL over our house and windows.

Night #3
Silly boy made me promise I would call me when I left work Friday night
I called and walked through the door about 1 a.m. and found THIS!
He made me call him so he could light all the candles then he hid and watched my reaction
We stayed up and talked for about an hour when he had to be to work at 3:30am
He came home about 7am and we slept in until 10:30!
Neither of us have done that in a long time
We made waffles and just lounged around until we went on our Valentines Dinner Date
I wanted to take Kyle out for Sushi
(even though, I'm not really a fan)
Or make steak but I knew something even better


Kyle was so excited when I told him we were going there.
He loves that place!!

Side note: When Kyle & I were getting married, we were sitting in the celestial room just being all nervous and junk..
then out of the blue he said
"I can't wait to go to Chuck-a-rama"
(we went there for lunch after we got hitched)
I just started to laugh quietly and said
"we are about to get married and that's what you are thinking about"

So you see...he REALLY loves that place!!
Funny story to tell the kids someday ;)

This was the only decent picture from the evening

Sunday, we forgot it was Stake Conference until 15 minutes before it started!!!
We both threw some church clothes on, put my hair in an up-do
and ran out the door.
We spent the rest of the day watching movies, making dinner together and dancing, singing and laughing the night away

Which brings us to today!

just like every morning, Kyle's alarm goes off at 3:30am
when he was all ready he came and kissed me goodbye

I set my alarm for 5 a.m. to start my surprise for him
I'm not really sure why I woke up so early?
It didn't take that long

I know, don't you just love our rubber made TV stand.

I went back to bed, set my alarm for 6:45 so I could start making breakfast
I don't know if I turned in on or if I just slept through it but the next thing I know, I hear Kyle open our bedroom door laughing and telling me what a good surprise

We exchanged gifts
our limit was $10-$15
He was so excited!!
and so darn handsome

Fun fact: I love markers, crayons, colored pencils, pens, etc.
We went to wal mart the other day and I told Kyle we should get some coloring books, but then I decided we didn't need them

I was definitely surprised!
ps. don't mind the ugliness. I just woke up

We made breakfast together and talked for a little bit then Kyle had to go to school

No fun plans tonight...I have to work!

That's okay, we had a GREAT weekend!!!!

I hope you have a great Lovers Day!


Here is a sneak peek at our wedding pics!!
Love, LoVe, LOVE it!!
Photo taken by: Jalene Taylor

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

bad mood

I am not in a very good mood right now

I feel like everything has been bugging me lately

Right now, it's the fact that:

#1. I only get to see my husband for a total of 2 hours today!


Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful that we both have jobs
and that Kyle is able to go to school and work 2 jobs

But, I'm not going to lie...I am REALLY hating it right now!

I clean our tiny house all morning
which really only takes like an hour

then I wait all day
Well..until 4:30, but it feels like all day
When Kyle comes home just to make us dinner and then leave to go to work

Which brings me to:

#2. I am also really hating cooking at the moment

I never ever know what to make for dinner!

I look at my cook books
I look online
I watch the food channel
I stalk other people's recipe blogs

But we don't have all the money in the world to spend on ingredients we don't have or that I have never even heard of.

So can I ask YOU, my blogging friends,

What are some of your favorite, EASY, but HEALTHY recipes????


#3. It's freaking freezing here
(-11 at the moment)

The cold, snow and dark clouds just make me want to lay in bed all day and watch movies!
..oh, but wait, I don't have Mr. Husband next to me to keep me warm.



thanks for letting me vent

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


I hate Mondays.

That's the day when Mr. Husband has to go back to school and work.

It really sucks after spending basically every second together on Saturdays and Sundays.

it doesn't help that Mondays are his long days at school either

meaning he doesn't get home until about 4:30pm


Yesterday was our 1 month anniversary of being married.
I can't believe it's already been a month.

Kyle didn't have to go to his first class so we got to spend a little bit of time together in the morning
I went to work at 10:30, got home about 3:30, cleaned a little..
Kyle got home, we made an early dinner then I went back to work at 7
I didn't get home until after midnight!!

Kyle & I joke around that we are already an 'old married couple'.

Because of Kyle's job, we go to bed really early... like 8-8:30pm!!!
I know, we are lame! But when he has to wake up at 3:30am, ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

I was just getting used to the routine when I got a job..(which is a blessing!!)..but I work from 7pm-11pm and midnight on the weekends.
Lets just say I am REALLY tired today..my body is all confused about whats going on.

Kyle also received a call yesterday for another job!
(which is ANOTHER blessing)
The hours are 3pm-8pm

So we are NEVER going to see each other :(

that made Monday an extra bad day!

But like my Mom told me, this is what we have been praying for. To find jobs that work with our schedules. I can't complain too much.. I just miss my cute husband!!

I hope you had a better Monday that we did

Are You Gonna Kiss Me Or Not

I heard this song today

It gave me butterflies

It reminded me of my sweet hubby and our dating days

psst...He kissed me the first day we met

Thursday, February 3, 2011


Last night Kyle & I headed over to our friends house for dinner.

I asked if I could make anything
they said a dessert!

As a bridal shower gift my cousin gave me this recipe for
"Darn Good Chocolate Cake"
and a few ingredients to make it.


It was D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S!

It's your lucky day, because I am going to share it with all of YOU!
(it is THAT good ;) haha)

So get your pens and paper out and



Darn Good Chocolate Cake

Prep Time: 10 Minutes
Baking Time: 45-50 Minutes


Vegetable Oil for misting the pan
(I just used non-stick spray)
Flour for dusting the pan
1 box of plain devil's food or dark chocolate fudge cake mix
(I used devil's food cake)
1 package of chocolate INSTANT pudding mix
4 large eggs
1 cup of sour cream
1/2 cup of WARM water
1/2 cup of vegetable oil
1 1/2 cups (12 oz) of semi-sweet chocolate chips

1. Place a rack in the center of the over and preheat the oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit. Lightly mist a bundt pan with vegetable oil spray, then dust with flour. Shake out the excess flour. Set the pan aside.

2. Place the cake mix, pudding mix, eggs, sour cream, warm water and oil in a large mixing bowl. Blend with an electric mixer on SLOW speed for 1 minute. Stop the machine and scrap down the sides of the bowl with a rubber spatula. Increase the mixer speed to MEDIUM and beat for 2-3 minutes, scraping the sides down again if needed. The batter should look thick and well combined. Fold the chocolate chips, making sure they are well distributed throughout the batter. Pour the batter into the prepared pan, smoothing it out with the rubber spatula. Place the pan in the oven.

3. Bake the cake for 45-50 minutes (until it springs back when lightly pressed with your finger and just starts to pull away from the sides of the pan). Remove the pan from the oven and place it on a wire rack to cool for 20-30 minutes. Run a long, sharp knife around the edge of the cake and invert it onto the rack to cool completely for 20-30 minutes.
Invert onto a serving platter to slice and serve while still warm.
(I prefer warm!!)
We also topped ours with a little powdered sugar


Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Nie Nie


Is simply amazing!

She is so positive about the trial that has presented her.
I feel like such a 'negative Nancy' about my little life sometimes

My goal is to SMILE and to find the positive in all.

Thank you NieNie
You are one amazing and beautiful woman!