Sunday, October 9, 2011


The past 3 weeks or so I've been really ornery.
I don't know why? Everything just seems to get on my nerves.

I get sad really easily.
example: I was in my communicative disorders class and we were watching a movie about a family that had twins and one of the babies was born deaf and the mom was having a hard time coping with it, etc, etc.
It made me cry a little.
Thank goodness that lights were off

And NO, it's not PMS.
I hate that people use that as an excuse or when someone says
"what's wrong with you? Do you have PMS?"
ughh, girls can be emotional or upset without having PMS.
really. grow up.

My family was here for a week and a half because baby Cooper was born
They left on Saturday afternoon.
We had to say goodbye on Friday.
I bawled my eyes out
I had to go to work shortly after they left which took my mind off of things for a while

I spent last night crying...
over a lot of things.

I'm so overwhelmed it's not even funny.

Mr. Husband & I both have two jobs and we are going to school.
We don't see each other a lot
it's hard.

i hate it.

I'm not taking any really hard classes but I've failed two tests already.
not miserably failed. just by a few points.
I have test anxiety.
No matter how much I study, I look at the test and forget everything.

I like school but I hate it at the same time.

I know that I need to go to school if I want to get anywhere in the world but I'm seriously debating if I want to.

With all the pressure the world gives you with having a baby, going to school, working, paying bills, etc.
seriously stresses me out!!!

Which brings me to my next point.

It drives me insane that people my age go on all these nice vacations, buy all these nice things/clothes/shoes, have new 'toys' all the time, etc
when the husband and I scrape pennies to pay bills & buy groceries.

How do they do it?
Are they just in debt?
Or do mommy & daddy still pay for everything?

I have friends whose parents pay their rent.

When I was old enough to work, my parents told me I had to get a job and pay for my own things.

clothes, phone, gas

Don't get me wrong, they will help us if we need it, but they aren't going to pay our freakin rent!

ugh, growing up seriously isn't as fun as I thought it was going to be.

Sorry this entry is all over the place

Just had to vent a little.