Monday, July 30, 2012

31

First off, I hope the few (very few) people who read my blog (which is just mainly for my documenting purposes & for family who live out of state) don't think all I do is complain.

When I was younger and "pissed at the world" I would run to my journal and write my feelings away until I felt better... it's not healthy to have feelings of hurt, anger, jealousy, sadness, whatever, whatever boil up inside of you so I would write it down. As I have grown older it is hard for me to find time to write in my journal so therefore, I write on my blog. I don't write everything I feel but you get the jist of what I am trying to say, right?

So, if you think I am a complainer, you don't have to read my blog anymore.. just sayin'

week 30-31 was a rough one!
I've been so tired. I could literally fall asleep at like 7 p.m.
Not that I would sleep well...

The 24th was considered a "School Holiday" which means, I didn't have to work..plus, the Dr. Office I work at had the day off too. SCORE!
The Mr. got off work early and we got to spend the rest of the day together.
We went Treasure Hunting (aka, thrift store shopping)
didn't find anything, I was quite disappointed.
I attempted to go Maternity Clothes shopping for an upcoming Maternity photo sesh.... yeah, complete fail.
Way to make me feel even more horrible about myself.
I cried.

But the rest of the week was spent in a lot of pain with a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions
I've had quite a bit of pressure and pain going on which has had me really worried something was wrong


Thursday night, I could not even move without wanting to cry.
It was too late to call the Dr. so I told Kyle if I wasn't feeling better in the morning I would call.
Didn't sleep one bit, every time I rolled over I felt like something was broken "downstairs" I called into work, called the dr. office right when they opened, talked to a nurse who said she would call me back when she talked to the dr.
3 hours later she called me back with "bad news"
She told me that there isn't anything you can do for SPD that I just have to deal with it and that the Dr. said it's one of the most painful things to go through when pregnant & sorry I have to go through it.
Lucky me, right?
I asked about all the pressure I was having, she said that wasn't normal and that I would come in to see if I was dilating and to test for a UTI.
Went in, sure enough, just my luck... I have been cursed with ANOTHER darn UTI
They still checked me to see if I was dilating. I wasn't.
The Doc said everything looks normal and my measurements are right on track & baby's heartbeat sounds perfect!

He gave me an antibiotic for the bladder infection, I've only taken it for 3 days now and can already tell a difference in the pressure, I am not having as many contractions, there is still pain, but not nearly as much. I have my 32 week appointment on Friday and I guess we will see how if it's gone by then. 

Things have also hit me quite hard that this baby is coming.
I think it's finally starting to set in which has caused some tears.
not sad tears.
terrified tears.
I think it's safe to say that I am freaking out (on the inside) a bit.

I feel like I have so much to do, but no motivation.
My sister is coming in a few weeks, hopefully she will get me in the mood to get my crap together ;)

And a shout out to my wonderful hubby! He has been so supportive, helpful, kind, and encouraging through all of our rough patches. He doesn't let me do anything, just tells me to go sit on the couch and put my feet up. He tells me I look beautiful even though I feel completely disgusting & wear his basketballs shorts & t-shirts more than I wear my own clothes. He is amazing, and is soooo excited for our little girl to get here. He already has all these plans and things he wants to do with her. I have to remind him that the first few months she will just be sleeping. He is simply amazing. I really lucked out with this one!



attempting to look cute & dress up the bump.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

30 WEEKS!

Boy, has this pregnancy flown by!!
I can't believe I only have 10 more weeks to go.
it's insane.

Everyone keeps telling me that I will just POP from here on out and I can definitely feel myself getting bigger.
My body/skin is sore and tender.
But still no stretch marks on my tummy.
wahoo.

I've also had a lot more pubic bone pain (Pubic Symphysis Diastasis) which has been a killer.
It pretty much hurts to do anything. Cross my legs, walk up/down stairs, stand up from a chair or couch, roll over, get out of bed, etc.
Lucky enough, the Chiropractic office I work at has a woman doctor who specializes in pregnancy/pregnant woman. She has been adjusting my pubic bone/tail bone, back and feet to try to make me the most comfortable I can be the last little bit of this adventure.

I've heard that some women get sick again during the third trimester (like they did in the first).
I have been hoping and praying my sick days are over.
They have been for the most part.
I feel a little queezy here and there
I did throw up Monday night, out of nowhere. I just sat straight up in bed and told Kyle "I think I am going to throw up" then I ran to the bathroom.
Sure enough, I barfed!
sick!
Just made my heartburn a million times worse
I think it's because I literally drank over a gallon of water that day.

Which brings me to my next point.
I am OBSESSED with eating ice.
I crave it.

Kyle and I went on a date the other night and when we left I filled both our cups up with just ice.
He thinks its funny.
But, he is so good to me..
He offers to rub my feet and back every night
He does the dishes for me on the days I work both jobs
He plays with my hair to help me fall asleep.
on & on.
He is the greatest!
I love him.

Other than that, just the usual.
lots of heartburn.
lots of back pain.
lots of bathroom breaks.
swollen legs, feet, hands
(I can't wear my wedding ring anymore :( sad day)
hormonal & emotional

..you know, all that good stuff

I am really nervous baby might come a little early.
I have been having a lot of pain "down stairs" and quite a bit of Braxton Hicks.
I hear that is normal but still, I am nervous.
Especially because my mom & dad are 5,000+ miles away.

Say a little prayer that she won't come until they get back to the United States.





Monday, July 16, 2012

29 weeks & Pregnancy Hormones

Well folks! I have now hit 29 weeks.
I can't hardly believe it.
I am on the down slope of this whole thing.
It scares me, I won't lie.
Mainly the labor part, but also having to be responsible for this little girl for the rest of eternity.

I just hope I am ready for this.

I have been very emotional lately.
Surprisingly, I haven't "broken down" though.
I just seem to get emotional/choked up over EVERYTHING.

Example:
We were in church a couple weeks ago..during fast & testimony meeting, this old man got up and started bearing his testimony...He was thanking the ward for all of their help and support with his wife's funeral and such. Little did I know, she passed away about a week prior. So, of course, I start to cry. I don't know why? I didn't know the old man or his wife. This was only our 3rd Sunday in our new ward. Now every Sunday I look at him and my heart breaks.

I've noticed I do this listening to songs, lessons at church (relief society), watching movies/tv shows (even the news people!), reading books/blogs, and the most common one these days....thinking of family. Even my family that lives close.

When we moved to AZ my heart just ached and ached to be closer to my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends, etc. I swore when I graduated that I was going to move back to UT. Of course, that never happened. I would go visit as much as possible, it was always fun & always sad to leave, but AZ started to become my new home. I knew I wasn't going to stay there forever, and I didn't want to. I guess you could call me kind of a dependent person. If I could have lived at home forever, I probably would have. Don't get me wrong, I like having my own place to call home, putting my own spin on things, learning through the trails/struggles life gives you, learning with Kyle, and here soon, starting our own little family but I miss being in a home. I miss coming home to my mom and dad. I miss having my siblings around. I miss having "family time" together...even if it was just sitting on the couch watching tv. I miss having animals around. I miss just having people that love you around all the time.

This pregnancy has been one tough experience for me.
1st, being a total surprise & not really knowing how to cope with it.
2nd, Not having my mom around for all of this has about killed me.

Kyle is amazing, he has helped me so much around the apartment, held my hand, let me cry on his shoulder, held my hair & rubbed my back during all the barfing episodes, went to McD's at all hours when I was craving french fries and a sprite, tells me I am beautiful every single day even though I feel like a beached whale, etc.

He is the best husband a girl could ask for.
really.
he is.

But sometimes you just need your mom.

I have friends, coworkers, aunts, cousins & grandma's around but it just isn't the same.
It's nice to get advice from them & here their pregnancy stories but I want...
I need my mom (and sister) here.
I wish they were here to experience all of this with me.
To help put the nursery together, to put baby girls clothes away, to decorate, to buy baby things, to go to dr. appointments with me, help me buy maternity clothes & in all honesty....just to tell me everything I am going through is normal and that it will all be okay.

Kyle tells me that & he puts up with me wanting to paint, organize, clean, etc
I just don't think he enjoys it as much as my mom & sister would.
(He did get a lil teary eyed when he was helping me put away baby socks..he couldn't get over how little they were)

My parents just left for England. They will be over in Europe for an entire month.
yes, a MONTH! jealous.
I am not quite sure how I feel about not being able to talk/text my mom for that long.
I talk to her everyday.
I'm getting all teary eyed thinking about it (darn hormones!)
I am so happy that my parents get to spend that much time together and over in Europe, but I am just a little jealous that I can't have my mom at my every call, need, question.
I REALLY hope this baby doesn't come early... (while they are over there).
She shouldn't. Everything is normal. But in that slight chance something could happen I think I would freak the crap out not having my mom at the hospital.

just sayin'.

Am I overreacting?

Monday, July 9, 2012

my daddy

If you follow the Track & Field world, you most likely know who my dad is.
If you don't, well, you most likely don't know who he is...unless you know our family, of course.

The past few years he has been recognized for his outstanding work as the assistant coach at the University of Arizona.

This recognition has come all the way back to Cache Valley where he went to USU on a full ride scholarship and made it mark back in the day.

I was called up one day to get interviewed for the "Legacy Scholarship" which Kyle & I both have.

I kept asking Kyle why in the world, out of all the students who have the scholarship, was I picked?
I'm the kind of person that just keeps to myself, I don't like to be the center of attention, I don't want attention drawn to me,  I completely avoid situations where I might get in trouble or have confrontations.

I then said, "I bet it's because of my dad!!"

Sure enough, when I went into the interview (that I made Kyle come to with me), the reporter said he was going to USU when my dad was competing and how he wrote all these stories on my dad, how my dad was the 'big guy on campus', etc, etc. Then when the article ran... oh boy! I had everyone in Cache Valley telling me they saw the article, my dad's sweet picture from college.


I know, I know
the mullet.
the stach.
the glasses.
It was his signature look back then ;)

Kyle always tells people that my dad is like the Hulk and how famous he is. I get a little embarrassed because I feel like I am bragging about how cool my dad is.
I never really realized that he was "famous".
He is just my dad.
the best dad at that!
But here in little Cache Valley, my dad has made quite a name for himself.

He recently returned home from a week & a half in Eugene, Oregon at the Olympic Trials where he coached Jill Camarena-Williams who placed FIRST! (and his other two throwers placed 6th & 9th). He has been coaching Jill for a number of years now. She followed our family down to Arizona to continue training with my dad and now resides there with her hubby. Jill is pretty much a part of the family and I feel privileged to know her.


Since my dad began coaching Jill, she "has won seven indoor and three outdoor national championships."
Jill was also the "first American to ever medal in the event when she won a bronze at the World Championships."

My dad has had the opportunity to travel all over the country and world with Jill. They will be heading to London next week!!! This time around, my dad has not only one athlete going to the Olympics but two! Julie Labonte , one of my dad's throwers at UA, placed first at the trials for Canada and will be competing for Canada in London. It's so cool to see high school kids contacting my dad because they want to train/work with him, or see how all these different colleges are calling him up offering him jobs across the United States, and athletes from all over the world add him to Facebook to get advice and want to come to the US to work with him.

So yeah, I think my dad is a pretty cool dude! And he is going to the best grandpa to our little girl! I am pretty sure that she has him wrapped around her finger already because grandpa Craig picked out these cute baby shoes/onesies while at the Trials.




And they are Nike, of course!! ;)

This article was published in the Herald Journal over the weekend. I thought it was pretty neat. And again, another sweet picture from his college days.

so, all in all, I just had to brag a little bit and let the world know just how cool my daddy is! :)
I think he is pretty awesome myself.

Love ya dad and miss you like CRAZY!

Sunday, July 8, 2012

28 weeks

On Friday I had my 28 week appointment. I was a little nervous for this appointment seeing as how this was the day that #1. I had to drink that sick nasty glucose drink to test for Gestational Diabetes and #2 that meant I had to get my blood drawn. And I do not like needles!

I went in 10 minutes early as stated
They took my blood pressure. 180/20. perfect!
(go me!)
Did the routine urine sample. always fun.
Listened to baby girls heartbeat. perfect!
(go baby!)

Dr. came in, measured my tummy which he didn't tell me how much it grew since last month! :(
I was too preoccupied with getting my questions answered to ask.

He reassured me that pretty much everything I was going through was normal...as I thought it was.
He seemed a little concerned about some pain I have been having in my pelvic area. He said it may be rubbing the cartilage, etc, etc. There was some name for it, but of course I don't remember it. He just said no jumping, running, heavy activity because then I will be in A LOT of pain for the rest of the pregnancy. As you say Dr.!

The splochy-ness (is that even a word?) in my hands is because of swelling, if I start to get frequent numbness, I need to call.

Swelling in my feet and legs is normal. boo.

The hip cramps/pinched nerve/popping is because baby is getting bigger and everything is moving, just as I thought.

Shortness of breath...totally normal. I have a baby in the way of my diaphragm, duh! ;)

Then the weight gain! ughhhhhhh
He seemed a little bit concerned since I have gained 10... yes, T.E.N. pounds since last month.
Believe me, he didn't have to say anything, I was shocked when I saw the number too!!!
My diet hasn't changed, I mean, of course I crave sweets and things but its not like I am eating sugar for breakfast and I have really tried to stay away from carbs.

Other than that, I have been feeling pretty good for the most part.
Still a lot of heartburn, swelling, sweating, etc.

I did get some stretch marks recently on the back of my legs and one on each hip.
I'm having a hard time coping with the changes of my body.
I'm really trying to not let it affect me, and I really didn't think it would
I just don't feel pretty anymore. like zero. no matter what anyone says.
Even Mr. Husband and I think that makes him sad. :(
It's good to know he still thinks I am "sexy" (as he says) but I don't feel "sexy".
I feel fat and gross and kind of dread taking my "weekly picture" just because you can see my weight gain everywhere. it's gross. 

Only 12 more weeks to go and then I plan on shedding it all off.
I can't believe it how fast it is going by. I know I say that a lot but we are almost in single digits!!
It was even more weird when the Dr. told me that he wants to see me every two weeks now instead of once a month. ah! it's really happening!!!!

We spent most of yesterday painting the baby dresser & changing table. Now all I need to do is wash all of her clothes, blankets and things then put them in there places. I feel like I am starting the whole "nesting" process a little early. I feel like I need to clean and organize everything right now. This weekend has been spent staying up late cleaning! Kyle probably thinks I am going crazy but he is right by my side helping me the entire time.

And here you all are... my not so lovely 28 week picture. please don't look at it too long. :/

Sunday, July 1, 2012

26/27 weeks

Nothing new or too exciting has happened since I last updated you all on baby.

I've been pretty miserable, I won't lie.

I don't mean to complain

I know there are people out there who have trouble getting pregnant, would die to be pregnant and people who will never have the opportunity to experience a little person growing inside them

But, I have had one rough pregnancy!

I was pretty much sick from the get go.
Not just morning sickness.
24/7 sickness.
I actually didn't throw up until the 2nd trimester which scared me because I heard the 2nd trimester is supposed to be the easiest of the three.
Things did get better. I could cook again, I could eat pretty much whatever I wanted without feeling gross, I could go grocery shopping & I had mad cravings for certain things but I also had (still have) constant heartburn because of said cravings.
I felt (feel) kind of at that awkward stage still...NOTHING fits quite right but people can now tell I am pregnant instead of playing that guessing game with themselves.
I have had a lot of back pain, pinched nerves, hips popping & muscle cramps going on.
I thought it was a bit early in my pregnancy for that but it all comes with being blessed as a woman, right? ;)

We moved the first of June to a new apartment.
We loved it and were getting so excited knowing this would be the place we would bring our little girl home.

Then the heat came!

The past week or so K and I have been dealing with some heat issues. No matter if we leave the windows open at night and close them when we get up for work to keep the cool air inside, it still feels like a sauna. We cant use the stove/oven without getting a heat wave and I about pass out blow drying/doing my hair.
This past weekend was a killer. We stayed outside until 11pm trying to keep cool.
We eventually decided we should go to bed so we weren't completely exhausted for work the next morning.
I laid in bed (in my underwear I might add) with our fan blowing on us while Kyle was getting ready for bed.
When he came in, I was in tears.
My whole body just ached.
literally throbbing.
My feet, legs, arms and hands all felt so swollen.
I could not cool down.
Kyle then brought in the ice packs which we slept with all night, along with 3 fans blowing on us.
It was uncomfortable, but we tolerated it.
Then next night when getting ready for bed, we grabbed the ice packs and the fans once again.
I fell asleep for about 30-45 min and woke up in a pool of sweat. Kyle never fell asleep.
The fans were just blowing hot air on us.
We got up and decided to sleep on the couch in front of a little window AC  unit that my brother let us borrow. We even took a cold shower to cool us down.
I was getting anxious and overwhelmed & I knew our little one could feel this because she was kicking me like crazy.
Kyle searched on the internet for about an hour trying to find ways to cool our apartment down.
no luck.
He was so mad he kept saying he just wanted to scream or punch the wall & we honestly contemplated calling our landlord and telling him we were moving out! haha
We eventually both fell asleep around 3am.
We only slept..well tried to sleep..for about 3 hours when our alarm went off to get ready for work.
We both laid there..... then decided to call into work. There was no way I could have made it through a 10 hour work day!
When we got the okay from our bosses we fell back asleep for a couple hours and then we decided we needed to go buy another window AC unit for our bedroom. After doing some research on certain ones, my cousin's wife messaged me and told me we could have their old one they don't use anymore. So, we took the free one over paying hundreds of $$ for a new one. We covered the windows with those window shades you put in your car & some cardboard. Yes, we may look white trash but if it means me and this baby with be comfortable, I don't even care!
I am not one that loves the winter..especially in Cache Valley, but I so look forward to the day where this summer heat is gone! I would much rather be cold than hot.

We have family coming to visit this weekend, cross your fingers that we won't all die of heat stroke.

Other than all that fun stuff going on...We have just been working our butts off. Bargain shopping for baby, piecing together the nursery & trying to get ready for this little bundle of joy to come in 3 months. We are nervous but so excited!! She is already getting spoiled by both sets of grandparents. We have not decided on a name yet. We have a few we (mainly me) really like, but can't pick one. How do you pick a name for your child for the rest of their lives? One that kids won't make fun of or something so strange that people look at the parents thinking "what the heck were they smoking when they named that kid"?
Just saying.....
Yes, I may be overly paranoid but that's just how I am.





Next week I have my 28 week appointment. I have to drink that "yummy" drink to see if I have Gestational Diabetes. Cross your fingers I don't. I am not too worried about it though :)

I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone by. It's hard to believe that this baby will be here in three short months. It freaks me out a little bit, but what can ya do except just take the bull by the horns, right?