Saturday, September 29, 2012

Ms. Hadley

We would like to introduce our sweet baby girl

Hadley Shay Hawk

Born September 25, 2012
at 7:36am
Weighing 7lbs 14oz.
and was 20in. long

We love her so much already!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


8 days until my due date


I never imagined being this close to bringing baby into this world.
It always seemed so far way.

I'm terrified to be 100% honest with myself.

I am one who people call a scaredy cat.
I avoid danger or anything that might get me in trouble.
I'm pretty scared out of my mind when it comes to having to do things I have never done before.

e.g. Giving birth to a tiny human!

Even though, most of the time, after I have done said "scary thing", I thought it was no big deal.

Everyone keeps telling me the labor part of this adventure will also be 'no big deal'
But I can't help but still be extremely terrified.

Yes, I am getting the epidural.
For you mama's who go all natural.
high five.

No freakin' way in hell I would ever do that though..... just sayin'.

They make drugs for a reason so hand 'em on over.
Why suffer if you don't have to?

last Monday night, the Mr. & I were both exhausted.
We decided to go to bed early.
Right when I was about to fall asleep I got a really sharp pain in my stomach which caused me to sit up right away and I immediately felt nauseous and like I had to go to the bathroom.
I tried to sit in front of the toilet but baby belly & swollen legs makes that pretty much impossible.
I ended up on the couch with the garbage can in front of me and then I had some extremely painful back pain hit.
Long story short, I thought I was going into labor, Kyle ended up rubbing my back for 2 hours even though we were both exhausted!
(such a good hubby)

We timed my contractions and they were about every 5-7 minutes apart.
I was freaking out (as stated above)
My sister came home early from a date and we thought we were going to be going to the hospital that night.

The contractions eventually got farther and farther apart
I started to calm down and eventually the barfy feeling went away.
I didn't go to work the next day seeing as I was up the entire night trying to get comfortable and worrying that it might happen again.

The next day i slept!
yes yes, i was almost 38 weeks along and it still wasn't packed.
don't judge me.

Ever since then I have been in a lot of pain and extremely uncomfortable.
Sleep is pretty much non-existent which means I am tired all the time which leads me to be kind of "snippy"
I don't want to be the ornery pregnant lady...but I am some days.
(sorry honey!)

I've had A LOT of back pain
I've been swelling/retaining water more than usual
my stomach is tender to even rub my fingers across it
I got my first & only (that I can tell) stretch mark on my stomach at 37 weeks.
(I almost made it!!!)
my tailbone feels like it's broken every time I stand or sit
I waddle when I walk
I have heartburn 24/7. I've eaten more tums in the past 1-2 weeks than I have the entire pregnancy.
Baby is moving constantly still...I thought they were supposed to slow down towards the end?
I'm surprised I don't have bruises on my stomach from all the kicking/moving.

At my 38 week appointment, the Dr. told me that is all normal and then he also told me that I had not progressed from the previous week.

I wanted to punch him in the face.

How had I not dilated anymore with all the pain I was in??

He did say that my little episode Monday night did sound like contractions though (yikes!)

I hear that once this baby is born, you forget about all these bad things.
I really hope that's true because I am d-o-n-e being pregnant!

I may not feel ready to bring this baby home and take care of her for the rest of eternity but I am done feeling like a beached whale.

Kyle's brother got married over the weekend, with being on my feet, all of the people in and out of my apartment, the anxiety and stress with trying to tuff it out and be there for them, my body is pretty much shot.
I had contractions the entire weekend and was afraid all the commotion was going to put me into labor...
I can't tell you how many people told me not to have that baby on the wedding day
(like there was anything I could have done???)

I've taken a few days off of work because I am trying to relax and take it easy so baby will stay in a little bit least until Saturday when my mom gets here.

I'm still terrified and I have crazy labor dreams almost every night but we are excited to meet baby girl any day now.

You are more than welcome to send some prayers my way because I'm freaked out!!!

Friday, September 7, 2012

37 Week Stats

Well, I am officially full term.


It is so weird to think this baby could come any day (or in 3 weeks) and everything would be fine.

If I sit and think about it too much, I freak myself out.

I went to the Dr. today for my 37 week appointment,

I was so nervous that he was going to tell me I needed to head over to the hospital.

I don't know why I thought that???
haha, just my mind playing games.

He did tell me that
I am 90% effaced
1 1/2 cm dilated
and that baby dropped 1 cm.

It's really happening people!!!