I have a handful of friends that had babies shortly after I had Miss H.
They all talk about how their babies are sleeping through the night, sleep in their crib, etc, etc.
Then of course, everyone & their dog gives me their 2 cents whether I want it or not.
In short, I've been feeling like a crappy mom lately..
Hadley hates her crib & doesn't stay asleep in it for very long.
She has only slept through the night twice (both times at 2-3 months)
I LOVE to hold/cuddle with her (& she loves it too) which usually ends in me getting absolutely nothing done and rarely changing out of my pj's.
She loves to be held by mom or dad which has caused her to be
But, I have come to the realization.
I DON'T CARE!!
She is my baby.
I am her mother.
I'm alone with Hadley for a majority of each day
I don't have a lot of close friends/family around
I want to be with her every second of every day.
She is only going to be this little once.
I only get one chance to see her in these stages, to see her develop her personality, to hear her find her voice/giggle, to see her crawl, walk, figure things out by herself, etc.
I love that she loves me and trusts me.
She is my entire world.
I will continue to hold her for however long I want to
I will fall asleep with her in my bed
I will give her all the kisses & loves I want to
She is my daughter & I love her.
I am going to soak up every second I can.
I'm not meaning for this to sound like a pity party..
I am overwhelmed with gratitude towards my amazing hubby (who I have been neglecting :( sorry Kyle) who works so hard at school & work so I can stay home and take care of our daughter and still finds time to help me.
I would just appreciate it if the world would stop telling me how to raise my baby.
She is spoiled, she is a princess, she gets pretty much whatever she wants
and right now...I don't care one bit.